Here's my story in a nutshell...

The day that I got back from my honeymoon I went off the pill, because although we weren't going to start a family and we were going to be careful if I got pregnant it was okay...we were married. We used the "pull out" method. That was two years ago. A little over a year ago we decided it was time to make some babies. I honestly believed that it would happen the first time. It happened like that for my brother and for my husbands two sisters. Every month I got my period right on schedule. We did it every position possible to help the swimmers along. I put my feet up over my head for 20 minutes afterwards. I took ovulation tests. I ate fertility foods and took prenatal vitamins. If you aren't fertile, you aren't making a baby.
I read that you have to be trying for a year before you would be considered as having problems. We were at 8 months. I had my yearly pap and I mentioned to my OBGYN that we had been trying with no luck. I looked great from what she could tell. It's a lot more invasive to check out a woman so she said to have my husband get checked first. He has a little fun and they test his semen. Non-invasive, no pain and fast. So we did. It was about $150.00. The results came back. We went to see the urologist who did the test and that is when our earth came shattering down. My husband has very low..very very low morphology. He is as healthy as a horse but his sperm cant pierce my eggs. He has enough..and they swim fine but basically their heads are a little funny. We were told our chances of conceiving the old fashioned way were so low that there is no point of even trying.  My husband feels awful, he thinks he ruined my life and if I married someone else they could give me babies. I don't want another mans babies. I want J's DNA to mix with mine and for us to create magic. He feels like he is less of a man. I actually think he is stronger than any other man I've ever met. Its a sad time for us but we will have children and they will be perfect and healthy.
Lots of crying later we met with a fertility specialist. She was annoying so we backed out and wasted $350 on a consultation and researched the best. We found him. He is the "rock star" of the fertility world. People come from all over the world to be helped by him. YAY! We only live 10 minutes from his office. We save money on travel.
Anywho...we have to do IVF with PICSI. Look it up, its pretty cool. So, I have had some ultrasounds and lots of blood taken from me and I am good to go. Apparently I am as fertile as they come. That's the good news. Its "better" if the infertility comes from the man. I should have no problem carrying a baby (or 2). A week ago they started me on the hormone shots. I stopped after 3 days because I had a dominant folly. I had to ovulate that egg and we start with Lupron on Monday. My blood test from this morning came back that we are ready to start. I will be on Lupron for roughly a week, have my period (hopefully my last for a long ass time) and go directly to my hormones to get those eggs ready to be retrieved and fertilized! The Lupron needles are super tiny and I will take them in my stomach.

* I want to be honest and say that this is very stressful time for us. Naturally we are worrying about everything. This is a financial burden and we don't have enough money as it is. We moved home with my parents (no rent) and we owe $300,000.00 for student loans.Yes..you read that correctly. My parents are amazing and are giving us the money. We pay for as much as we can. This is a very expensive procedure but we have no other options. I am already 30 and the older those eggs get the harder/more expensive it becomes.
* I am very scared. I am trying to stay positive for myself and my husband but I am scared.