Happy Face

This positive thoughts thing is already working for me. I am so very happy to report that when I had my ultrasound and b/w done this morning the doctor was very pleased to see that my cyst went from being the size of an orange to a deflated balloon on its own. He believes I should pass it on my own by Friday so we can start the stims. Phew! I wont have to have it ruptured! At least that is what it looks like for now. I will go back on Friday to have it all checked again to make sure. As usual, I brought him some treats. We traded a tin of homemade treats for two boxes of Bravelle! He is so awesome and that saved us a couple hundred dollars. The best part is..he thinks he made out with the better deal. Love this guy!


 A little advice: Find out what your Doctor likes. My Doctor has a sweet tooth so I bake him treats every time I go to see him. Show how much you appreciate your Doctor and they will appreciate you as a patient. 
 This is the recipe for what I brought him today. It is easy and anyone can make them. You even get to cheat a little!


Mint Chip Cookies
Use any sugar cookie mix you would like. Follow the directions and then add the following:
1/2 tsp mint extract
1 egg
6-8 drops green food coloring
1 cup chocolate chunks
1 cup creme de menth baking chips/or Andes mints are great too

1. Heat oven to 350°F. In large bowl, stir cookie mix, extract, food color and egg until soft dough forms. Stir in creme de menthe baking chips and chocolate chunks.
2. Using small cookie scoop or teaspoon, drop dough 2 inches apart on ungreased cookie sheet.
3. Bake 8 to 10 minutes or until set. Cool 3 minutes; remove from cookie sheet to wire rack. Serve warm or cool completely. Store tightly covered at room temperature.

Read with Caution

I just got home from the Doctor where I had another ultrasound. It turns out I have a Corpus Luteum Cyst on my left ovary. Nothing to worry about, basically just left overs from what I didn't ovulate. However, the pain I am having now has a valid reason. This puts a slight damper on the cycle, the Doctor will rupture the cyst next week so he can start me on my stims. I will go in on Tuesday for another ultrasound and then have a 10 minute surgery on Wednesday. I am thankful he is not dropping the cycle! I can't help that I cried. I am just disappointed and scared. I know I get myself all worked up over the "what ifs" but maybe it's just practice for when I actually become a mother. A mother who worries.
 I said I was going to be honest, so here it is...this morning was humiliating to me. First, I have never had a period this heavy in my life. I couldn't even get out of the shower this morning because I was dripping so much blood.  Finally, after a super plus tampon and a sanitary napkin I went to the Doctor. I know it his job and he sees it all the time, but I don't show people all the time. You know what I am saying? They put the dog pee pads on the table. Afterwards I could barely get off the table because of so much blood. I told my Husband not to look. There was no reason to see that. I brought a travel box of baby wipes and used all of them. I could barely look at at my Doctor in his office because I was so embarrassed. He told me not to worry, its because of the cyst and it won't be a problem. He reassured me that I shouldn't be embarrassed. This is all just so hard.
My Husband and I got into a fight when we got home. Not about this, but the stress starts getting to you. I just want to lie in bed for the rest of the day. I need to go into work this afternoon but I am exhausted from the pain, from the stress and the 100 degree weather mixed with hot flashes.