8 Week Ultrasound

Yesterday was my 8 week ultrasound, and it was amazing to see my little gummy bear! We got to hear the heart beat and it was such a wonderful sound! You could see the little arms and it was like the baby was waving at us saying, "Don't stress Mama, I'm here and I am healthy!" The baby is measuring 2 cm. The Doc said everything looked perfect! Phew! My husband is glad that we can start having sex again..its been 2 months! The Doc just wants to make sure he withdraws or we use a condom because semen can cause cramping.

I have a feeling that its a boy. Of course, I would be thrilled with either and I don't care as long as the baby is healthy but deep down I feel like its a boy. I might feel bad about myself if I am wrong and its a girl because it would mean I have zero intuition about my own baby. We'll have to wait and see.

Heart Beat

I just got back from the best appointment yet! We just saw my baby's heartbeat! My little coffee bean's (that is what it measured to be) heart was just beating away! My husband got a little emotional and I was just grinning ear to ear. It is really starting to feel real now. Our due date is June 4...but we were told that it may change. I know that I may be biased but that was the best looking bean I have ever seen! Everyday that my baby's heart beats, my heart beats for my baby. I am so in love!

Now, that I am pregnant and the baby is healthy, none of the IVF matters anymore. I don't feel bad for myself anymore. We are having a baby and that is the only thing that matters.

6 Weeks Pregnant

Its crazy how fast time goes by and I never thought that this would happen. I am sick today. Sick as in morning sickness...I am so nauseated and have been throwing up for the last two hours or so. I guess this is a good thing although it feel so bad. I can't go to work today, I had to tell them I was just too damn sick!

Heaven and Hell

Heaven
taking my bra off!!!
knowing I have a baby growing
thinking of baby names (we are 100% sure of our boy name and 80% sure for the girl name)
having hubby rub lotion on my tummy
taking my bra off!!!
dreaming of holding my baby
reading about baby's growth progress
maternity pants. yes. awesome.
taking my bra off!!!
ketchup
cool dreams
colace
my dog's instinct that something is different with me. super protective and wants to lie on my belly
not having to take my night time suppository starting tonight!
taking my bra off!!!
oh..and taking my bra off!

Hell
my booby pain and having to wear a bra
being this tired and not allowed any caffeine
night time queasiness
forgetting to turn off my car when I went shopping (glad I live in an uber safe neighborhood)
constipation which led to me having hemorrhoids
constant wetness down yonder from my "posis"TMI WARNING like cream cheese and cervical mucus X 100
bad gas- at least hubby thinks its funny
craving for a sandwich and can't have deli meat
bloat- thank you ohss!
super expensive maternity clothes -just spent all our money on IVF!
hearing the jacuzzi call my name over and over and I can't listen
having to change underwear 3 times a day- even with a pad!

I wouldn't trade any of it! I feel so blessed that I am pregnant and I can't wait to feel my baby grow!

One Healthy Baby

Today I had my first ultrasound and we were able to see the sac with the tiny little yolk. We aren't having twins but as long as we have one healthy baby I am okay. My beta was 6,646 today and that is a great number.  I am having a hard time writing on my blog because I am trying not to think about it...I have become completely neurotic and paranoid that I am going to lose the baby. I am so afraid that it will just go away. I need constant reassurance that this baby is here to stay. What should be the happiest time in my life is filled with so much worry. When I hear the heartbeat next week, I will feel so much relief.